It’s a paradox that has plagued me for years, and one that I’m still trying to resolve.
The Paradox of the Yoga Teacher
As a yoga teacher, I’ve always been drawn to the idea of embodying the principles of yoga: self-awareness, self-discipline, and self-acceptance. But as I’ve delved deeper into the practice, I’ve come to realize that it’s not just about the physical postures – it’s about the mental and emotional states that accompany them. And that’s where the paradox comes in.
The Problem of Self-Doubt
One of the biggest challenges I face as a yoga teacher is self-doubt. Am I truly qualified to teach this practice? Am I doing it justice? These questions creep into my mind every time I step onto the mat, and they can be debilitating. I’ve lost count of the number of times I’ve cancelled classes or avoided teaching altogether because of my own self-doubt. Some of the specific doubts that plague me include: + Am I too inexperienced to teach advanced classes? + Am I not knowledgeable enough about anatomy and physiology?
She has named her beloved mat, and it’s not uncommon for yogis to form strong bonds with their mats. But what exactly is it about yoga mats that makes them so special?
The Psychology of Yoga Mats
Yoga mats are more than just a piece of equipment; they’re an extension of the yogi’s practice. They provide a sense of comfort, security, and familiarity, which can be especially important for beginners or those who are new to yoga. The tactile sensation of the mat can also be calming and meditative, much like the sensation of walking barefoot on a sandy beach. Some yogis even report feeling a sense of connection to their mats, as if they’re an extension of their own bodies. The weight and texture of the mat can also affect the yogi’s experience, with some preferring the feel of a thick, plush mat and others preferring a thinner, more minimalist option.*
The Science Behind Yoga Mats
From a scientific perspective, yoga mats are designed to provide a safe and comfortable surface for practicing yoga.
I’m not sure what I’m doing or where I’m going. I feel like I’m just going through the motions, not really engaging with the training material. I’m starting to feel frustrated and disconnected from the group.”
Feeling Disconnected and Frustrated
As I reflect on my experience so far, I realize that I’m not alone in feeling this way. Many people who start training programs like this often experience a sense of disconnection and frustration. It’s common to feel overwhelmed by the amount of information being presented, and to struggle to find meaning and purpose in the training. Some common reasons for feeling disconnected and frustrated include: + Lack of clear goals and objectives + Insufficient support and guidance + Unclear expectations and communication + Feeling overwhelmed by the amount of information + Lack of engagement and motivation
Breaking Down the Barriers
So, what can be done to break down these barriers and get back on track? Here are some strategies that may help:
Finding Meaning and Purpose
One of the most important things to remember is that the training is not just about the material itself, but about the journey and the growth that comes from it.
I need to be honest with myself and others about what I can and cannot do.
Setting Realistic Expectations
When it comes to setting goals, it’s easy to get caught up in the excitement of the moment and set unrealistic expectations. We often find ourselves saying things like, “I’m going to be a pro in a month!” or “I’m going to be able to do 100 push-ups in one go!” These statements may sound impressive, but they’re often based on a lack of understanding of what’s truly possible. Unrealistic expectations can lead to frustration and disappointment when reality sets in. They can also lead to burnout and injury, as we push ourselves too hard and beyond our limits. Instead, it’s essential to set realistic expectations that take into account our current abilities and limitations.
Understanding My Limitations
To set realistic expectations, I need to understand my own limitations.
The tension between the desire to be open to new experiences and the fear of failure is a universal struggle. We all have our own battles to fight, our own fears to face, and our own self-doubt to overcome. It’s not the size of the boat that matters, it’s the size of the sea that we’re sailing in. As the old saying goes, it’s not the individual that’s important, it’s the sum of their experiences. What matters is how we respond to our circumstances. We can’t control the waves, but we can learn to surf them. The sea is vast and unpredictable, but we can navigate it with courage, resilience, and a willingness to adapt. We often mistake the symptoms of anxiety for the disease itself. We think that anxiety is a fixed entity, something that we either have or we don’t. But anxiety is a complex entity, a dynamic system that’s influenced by our thoughts, emotions, and experiences. It’s not something that’s always present, but rather a presence that ebbs and flows throughout our lives. By recognizing this, we can begin to see anxiety as a signal, rather than a problem. A signal that something needs attention, that we need to adjust our course. The greatest gift that we can give ourselves is the gift of self-awareness. Self-awareness is the ability to observe our thoughts, emotions, and behaviors without judgment. It’s the ability to see ourselves from the outside, to recognize patterns and habits that may be holding us back. It’s the ability to approach ourselves with kindness, compassion, and understanding. By cultivating self-awareness, we can begin to break free from the limitations of our own minds. We can learn to navigate the complexities of our own thoughts, emotions, and experiences.
I want to be able to take a break and enjoy the simple things in life.”
Embracing the Desire for a More Romantic and Delusional Mindset
The pursuit of a more romantic and delusional mindset is a journey that requires self-reflection, patience, and a willingness to challenge one’s own perceptions. It’s a desire to shift from a cynical and pessimistic outlook to a more optimistic and enthusiastic one, where the possibilities seem endless and the future is bright.
Understanding the Roots of Cynicism
Before embarking on this journey, it’s essential to understand the roots of cynicism. What drives our negative thoughts and behaviors? Is it a result of past experiences, societal pressures, or a general lack of hope? Identifying the sources of cynicism can help us address the underlying issues and work towards a more positive mindset.
The sense of purpose that comes with it. I miss the feeling of being fully engaged and committed to my goals. I miss the sense of accomplishment that comes with it.
Embracing a Stronger Sense of Self and Responsibility.
The Evolution of My Internal Permission Structure
My internal permission structure has undergone significant changes over the years, particularly in the realm of responsibility. In the past, I may have been too lenient with myself, allowing myself to take on more than I could handle. This leniency has led to feelings of overwhelm, anxiety, and a general sense of being “stuck.”
The Shift Towards Greater Responsibility
However, I’ve come to realize that this leniency has been holding me back. I’ve been trying to actively correct my internal permission structure, shifting my focus towards greater responsibility and self-awareness. This shift has been a gradual process, but it’s one that I’m committed to.
Key Factors in the Shift
Several key factors have contributed to this shift:
The Benefits of a Stronger Internal Permission Structure
As I’ve worked to strengthen my internal permission structure, I’ve noticed a range of benefits. These include:
The Benefits of Yoga
Yoga is a holistic practice that offers numerous benefits for the body, mind, and spirit. Some of the key benefits include:
The Science Behind Yoga
Yoga is not just a physical practice, but also a mental and spiritual one.
10. Sometimes, showing up is enough. Something in me always unclenches when a yoga teacher tells the class that just making it to the mat is a win. Although any sort of learning comes with the requisite curve, I’m trying to remind myself that the reason I’m having this experience is because of me. I can pat myself on the back for creating this opportunity for growth—even on the days that said growth seems stunted. Especially on those days. ___________________________________________________________________________ Follow along! 10 Thoughts I Had During My Second Weekend of Yoga Teacher Training